Feeling Homesick

I have had the best time so far on my year abroad. Of course there have been hiccups, but I have dealt with them so much better than I thought I would and overall, I am at least 10x more comfortable living in Spain than I originally thought possible.

I arrived around six weeks ago now and whilst I have definitely missed home during that time, I can’t say that I have felt particularly homesick until this weekend.

I think that there is a huge difference between missing someone who, or something that, isn’t there, and feeling homesick. The latter is certainly much more difficult to ignore; it’s hard to get on with your day despite it. Obviously, though, I have been able to get on with my days and I am feeling so much better, but I thought I would write about the topic anyway. Sometimes hindsight makes for much better reading.

This weekend some of my housemate’s family visited us to stay for a few days. Don’t get me wrong, I had a wonderful time getting to know them, they were absolutely lovely and far more generous towards me than they had to be. But their visit triggered certain aspects of homesickness that I knew would eventually hit me.

So far I have yet to see any of my family, or my boyfriend, although that will soon be changing as Luke is visiting this weekend and I CANNOT WAIT. Since moving here, I have kept myself so busy that I never really stopped to think that this is the longest I have ever gone without going home. Usually, I am a massive homebody, and so whilst I know I have done pretty damn well to last this long without any serious pangs of homesickness, now that it has hit it has done so hard.

I have always been one to suffer from FOMO (fear of missing out), and I honestly knew that this year would be no different. It’s not just the people at home (and when I say home, I mean university and work as well, of course) that I miss, but also the things that they are doing. I miss dog walks, coffee shops, nights out in Birmingham, shared dinners and cosy evenings in in front of the TV.

I have even been missing the cold weather, wrapping up in coats and scarves and watching the fireworks, which is always one of my favourite events of the year.

In contrast, I can also tell you exactly what I am not missing. Longer working hours than I have here, essays, deadlines and frequent rain being amongst them!

Sorry if this post has mainly seemed like a moan. I mean, it definitely has been, but I promise I will still try to see the positive as much as possible. After all, I am living in arguably one of the prettiest places I have ever been to, with a housemate that I am lucky enough to have found a ‘forever friend’ in. I have visited numerous incredible cities despite only having been here for a relatively short amount of time, and my language skills have improved tenfold. Hooray!

I hope you are all enjoying the autumn/winter season, and I will leave you with a picture of the stunning view of my new and temporary ‘home’. Not a bad running location if I do say so myself!

Haze x

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4 Comments

  1. Jane Webb
    08/11/2017 / 8:28 AM

    Beautifully written Hazel. Actually brought a tear to my eye. x Sounds like you are embracing the experience again now though. All those lifelong memories you are creating …
    Christmas is just around the corner and I will order snow for you xxx

    • 08/11/2017 / 1:13 PM

      Thank you! I hope you can make that work, snow would be amazing! Xxx

  2. Tracy
    27/03/2018 / 7:55 AM

    Ahhh, Hazel you are such an amazingly strong character to embrace this whole experience, I’m sorry you’re having pangs of homesickness, but I also know that it won’t last long for you and you’ll be back to your old self before you know it, still missing everyone but looking forward in anticipation instead!
    Big hugs!

    • 27/03/2018 / 8:04 AM

      Thank you so much! I’m so split in two at the moment; I don’t want to leave but I also can’t wait for summer at home and going back to Birmingham! We have so many exciting things booked in for before we leave, so I am just taking advantage of being here at the moment x

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